You never know how little you know about yourself till you get truly lost. When you blink and everything has gone to shit. I went from having a very secure family, great self awareness and all the love I can have ever wanted to having four separate families, being totally emotionally drain and feeling very lost.
What do you do when everything you have known for the last 20 years changes in a split second? You would like to think that you are strong enough to deal with it, that you wouldn’t stumble along the way and that your relationships with everyone involved would be the same.
But it isn’t that simple. I am not one to share my problems and I have always been able to repair the broken but this time was a lot different and it would take a lot more then myself to get over it. It’s hard when one of the main people in your life, the person who brought you into the world betray you. And I was totally mind blown.
I didn’t understand what I was finding it so hard to deal with, I tried to stay everyone’s friend along the way but time is the only healer and it’s only 3 months in. I am still broken, very broken but bonds are healing and time is soothing.
Maybe one day I will return and tell you I have grown into a better person but you will all have to wait a few more months for that one I am afraid.